For Once In My Life

For once in my life,
I feel I've done right.
For once in my life,
I feel I'm all right.

Yet I feel uncertain,
What if, why and what could be.

How can you be sad while you're happy,
How can you be worried,
Why can't you just be...?

For once in my life,
I feel the best
Yet now in my life,
I fear the worst...

In the hands of Lady Luck

Threw my fate into the hands of luck
Luck. Luck rarely sides with me
For once I've done what felt was right
Feelings are illogical, you never know what they'll be

Threw myself to the lion's den
That den. Two choices for what lay within
Be it treasure, or be it thrash
That den is the place where a dream could begin

Now I wait
Wait for a signal
Wait for a message
Wait for anything that would point me toward the right direction

So many possibilities, yet many consequences
So much beauty, yet very terryfiyng

What will happen, no one knows.
Whatever the result, I know it's for the best
Best, for me, for you, for everyone

Devoted to Janne

Sometimes this happens,
I know it's weird,
The strangest of strangers from yesterday
Can become friends today

You might think I'm crazy
But do you remember when we met
Neither had seen the other
Still something clicked
Today you are, the best of my friends

From the darkness you rescued me
I'd do the same for you
From the tallest mountain to the deepest sea
I'll be there for you.

No one knows

Surrounded with sad times
But the sadness ain't mine
Surrounded by darkness
Still I see just fine

What changed from last time?
Tolerating more and more
Why can I watch someone destroying what's mine?
Just sitting back while all is gone

Am I separating from a past life?
Don't care about the consequences
Am I entering to a new time?
Not caring about the past

I don't know if I like it
I don't know if I hate it
I don't know how to deal with it
I don't need help but still I want it

For those who don't understand
Don't feel bad, neither do I
If someone thinks they understang this
All I can say is, you're a fool
For what I feel can only be understood by me
Whatever you think is false
For the truth is inside of me
I just haven't found it yet

A part of me wants to stay
The other wants to go
What I really want to do?
No one knows

A man without a past

Once a fool
Nothing more but a tool
Picked on and hated
But not decimated

That was the past
What once was no longer has to be
This is the present
What will come no one can predict

They said you're future's bright
All you need to do is stand alone and fight
Well that's what happend and look at me now
A strong man, who is weak somehow

Seeming confident is a lie
A lie I must keep up
To keep up the lie is to keep up my life
Taking that lie away would break me down

Still you insist,
your future's brighter than mine
I say, focus on your own life
I'll try to survive through mine.

What's the point anyway,
All that mattered is taken away,
Sure there are new things
But a man without a past, is a man without future

Something only I can see

What once was, no longer exists
Foreign to me, normal for you
I'm not me, not what I used to be
All has changed, shrouded in mist

Can't see what used to be
Are the better days behind me?
Are they still coming my way?
Can't see the future ahead of me

You've changed, better or worse, who knows.
Everyone just seems so foreign to me
Don't have anyone to talk to,
These things are something only I can see

For how I wish, for this to end
Hoping to return back to the beginning
When everything was easy
And nothing was new for me...

Back then

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Once in a warm place,
shielded from evil.
Once in a safe place,
protected from the devil
As a child,
Nothing was hard, nothing was difficult
Now they took it all away

Pushed into reality,
Pushed right into the chaos
Now it's up to me,
to build my own future,
Like it or not, I must
Time has come for me to take action.

Now that I look back,
Seeing what I could have done,
Seeing what I should have done,
Seeing what I wanted to do.
Life seems a lot more complicated,
than I could even comprehend...
Back then....