No one knows

Surrounded with sad times
But the sadness ain't mine
Surrounded by darkness
Still I see just fine

What changed from last time?
Tolerating more and more
Why can I watch someone destroying what's mine?
Just sitting back while all is gone

Am I separating from a past life?
Don't care about the consequences
Am I entering to a new time?
Not caring about the past

I don't know if I like it
I don't know if I hate it
I don't know how to deal with it
I don't need help but still I want it

For those who don't understand
Don't feel bad, neither do I
If someone thinks they understang this
All I can say is, you're a fool
For what I feel can only be understood by me
Whatever you think is false
For the truth is inside of me
I just haven't found it yet

A part of me wants to stay
The other wants to go
What I really want to do?
No one knows

A man without a past

Once a fool
Nothing more but a tool
Picked on and hated
But not decimated

That was the past
What once was no longer has to be
This is the present
What will come no one can predict

They said you're future's bright
All you need to do is stand alone and fight
Well that's what happend and look at me now
A strong man, who is weak somehow

Seeming confident is a lie
A lie I must keep up
To keep up the lie is to keep up my life
Taking that lie away would break me down

Still you insist,
your future's brighter than mine
I say, focus on your own life
I'll try to survive through mine.

What's the point anyway,
All that mattered is taken away,
Sure there are new things
But a man without a past, is a man without future

Something only I can see

What once was, no longer exists
Foreign to me, normal for you
I'm not me, not what I used to be
All has changed, shrouded in mist

Can't see what used to be
Are the better days behind me?
Are they still coming my way?
Can't see the future ahead of me

You've changed, better or worse, who knows.
Everyone just seems so foreign to me
Don't have anyone to talk to,
These things are something only I can see

For how I wish, for this to end
Hoping to return back to the beginning
When everything was easy
And nothing was new for me...