Devoted to Janne

Sometimes this happens,
I know it's weird,
The strangest of strangers from yesterday
Can become friends today

You might think I'm crazy
But do you remember when we met
Neither had seen the other
Still something clicked
Today you are, the best of my friends

From the darkness you rescued me
I'd do the same for you
From the tallest mountain to the deepest sea
I'll be there for you.

No one knows

Surrounded with sad times
But the sadness ain't mine
Surrounded by darkness
Still I see just fine

What changed from last time?
Tolerating more and more
Why can I watch someone destroying what's mine?
Just sitting back while all is gone

Am I separating from a past life?
Don't care about the consequences
Am I entering to a new time?
Not caring about the past

I don't know if I like it
I don't know if I hate it
I don't know how to deal with it
I don't need help but still I want it

For those who don't understand
Don't feel bad, neither do I
If someone thinks they understang this
All I can say is, you're a fool
For what I feel can only be understood by me
Whatever you think is false
For the truth is inside of me
I just haven't found it yet

A part of me wants to stay
The other wants to go
What I really want to do?
No one knows

A man without a past

Once a fool
Nothing more but a tool
Picked on and hated
But not decimated

That was the past
What once was no longer has to be
This is the present
What will come no one can predict

They said you're future's bright
All you need to do is stand alone and fight
Well that's what happend and look at me now
A strong man, who is weak somehow

Seeming confident is a lie
A lie I must keep up
To keep up the lie is to keep up my life
Taking that lie away would break me down

Still you insist,
your future's brighter than mine
I say, focus on your own life
I'll try to survive through mine.

What's the point anyway,
All that mattered is taken away,
Sure there are new things
But a man without a past, is a man without future

Something only I can see

What once was, no longer exists
Foreign to me, normal for you
I'm not me, not what I used to be
All has changed, shrouded in mist

Can't see what used to be
Are the better days behind me?
Are they still coming my way?
Can't see the future ahead of me

You've changed, better or worse, who knows.
Everyone just seems so foreign to me
Don't have anyone to talk to,
These things are something only I can see

For how I wish, for this to end
Hoping to return back to the beginning
When everything was easy
And nothing was new for me...

Back then

Pitäisi mennä (itse asiassa olla jo) nukumaan mutta inspiraatio iski eikä tämmöisiä tilanteita voi ohittaa...

Once in a warm place,
shielded from evil.
Once in a safe place,
protected from the devil
As a child,
Nothing was hard, nothing was difficult
Now they took it all away

Pushed into reality,
Pushed right into the chaos
Now it's up to me,
to build my own future,
Like it or not, I must
Time has come for me to take action.

Now that I look back,
Seeing what I could have done,
Seeing what I should have done,
Seeing what I wanted to do.
Life seems a lot more complicated,
than I could even comprehend...
Back then....

Lahjoja, lahjattomuutta tai jotain siltä väliltä

Noh... Mä olen tässä vähän miettinyt asioita ja tullut semmoiseen tulokseen että mä saatan vaikka osatakkin kirjottaa runoja, (saatan kyllä olla osaamattakin, lukijahan sen päättää). Joten olen päättänyt että tästä lähtien puran tunteitani runoilemalla. Hyvin vaikeata tehdä tämmöisiä päätöksiä kun on tämmöinen *aktivoi sarkasminapin* alfauros, joka paikan höylä, muutenkin kaikkitietäväinen sekä maskuliininen mieshenkilö *deaktivoi sarkasminapin*.

Mutta tosiaan, aloitetaan sitten osalla numero *lisää numero*


What is "life"?

Is it really a life, if there's no one to live it with?
Is it really a life, if there's nothing to share from it?
Is it really a life, if there's no one to hear from it?
Is it really a life, if you just watch from the sidelines...

Who's the judge of the game called life?
Is there any rules?
Who are the players and what is the playing field?
Is there even a such a thing?

What is the thing you experience?
What if it's just a hallucination?
An image created by your mind?
Is there even a reality?

Who can answer these questions?
I can answer to this one
No one can.....

Noticed me? I think not...

For once I'd like to be your center of attention
For once I'd like to be someone you care about
For once I'd like that you wouldn't push me aside
For once I'd like you to notice me.
But do you.... I think not

Am I just so normal that I blend in
Am I just so weird that i don't
Am I just so unrecognizable that you don't see me
Am I just so unappealing to be with,
That you'd rather be alone than with me.

Whatever the reason, I understand now
There is no place for me in your life
Whatever the reason, don't pull me back
There is no place for you in my life